have a little patience;

I was blown away
What could I say
It all seemed to make sense
You've taken away everything
And I can't deal with that.

Cause I need time
My heart is numb has no feeling
So while I’m still healing
just try and have a little patience

I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
the one that I can always depend
I’ll try to be strong believe me
I’m trying to move on
it’s complicated but understand me.

heyl0s.heyl0s.
l0ng time since i've update.
been busy.like i t0ld ya.
and what's m0re many things been happening.

i dnt kn0w whether i sh0uld say this.
cause what im g0ing t0 say w0uld maybe hurt 0thers.
but i have t0 be straightf0rward th0ugh.

maybe ref0rming back sexybaliks was a mistake.
i dnt kn0w.
but s0meh0w.
the m0re we try t0 get cl0ser.
the m0re we are drifting apart.

they say im n0t being myself lately.
i s0meh0w agree th0ugh.
but it's n0t 0nly me.
if 0nly y0u knew.

i have tried my best t0 spend time with y0u.
but t0 n0 avail.
it's like.
we are t0gether.
but it's 0nly 0n the 0utside.but what ab0ut in the inside?

i cnt g0 0n anym0re.
i just want t0 make y0u guys realise.
i just cnt be the 0ne wh0 sh0uld make it right s0metimes.
we d0 0ur part.and make a difference.
and everything w0uld be alright.

trust me.
y0u can step up y0ur game and save this friendship.
0r even just let it fade away.
and make me regret my decisi0n t0 ref0rm.

the decisi0n's in y0ur hand.
whether t0 save it 0r n0t.
and i w0uld kn0w the answer
with the way y0u act.

en0ugh ab0ut this.
i'm n0t in sch0ol 0n m0nday.
g0ing f0r harm0nica syf.
w0uld 0nly be g0ing f0r last less0n that is maths.

then tuesday w0uld not be g0ing t0 sch0ol.
it's lab0ur day.

and t0day.
w0nt be at h0me.
w0uld be at d0wnt0wn.
a familly functi0n g0ing 0n.
i w0uld 0nly update 0n m0nday.
if can.t0m0rr0w.

and yesterday.was pretty weird.
it was a stupid j0ke.
but i t0ok it seri0usly until i had a dream ab0ut it th0ugh.
but i dnt kn0w.
everywhere i g0.i w0uld see y0u.
haiy0.

but i t0ld ya.
i've l0ng given up 0n l0ve.
s0 dnt waste y0ur time.
it's 0f n0 use.

i'm d0ne here.i guess.
i'm busy this week.
and i'm t0o tired.

s0 take care.
anything just msg me 0r give me a call.
s0 i'm 0utta here.
take care.