i th0ught y0u knew;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
it was fun th0ugh just then.
alth0ugh there's s0me m0ments when i was in trance.
haiy0.

we had h0mec less0n t0dae.
c0ok ayam masak merah and 0ndeh2.
hah!
kewl.

s0metimes i just dnt understand myself.
haish.
i make pe0ple happy.
even th0ugh i kn0w myself.
i wasnt that happy.

maybe i didnt want pe0ple t0 w0rry ab0ut me.
0r maybe just maybe.
i didnt want them t0 kn0w ab0ut it als0.

damn!
i hate myself s0metimes.
im happy 0utside.
but what ab0ut my inside?

maybe it was full with unhappiness s0metime.
haiy0.
a heart full of w0rds left unsp0ken.

and i g0t t0 kn0w.
i w0uld be participating in the speech day.
w0uld be 0n duty 0n saturdae.
serving the indian students fr0m india.

its fun 0verall.
but what i hate m0st is.
wear a tie.haiy0.

i hate wearing a tie.
its n0t kewl t0 me.
haiy0.
nehmind.

and t0m0rr0w w0uld be g0ing t0 give diahh a treat.
but i cnt get thr0ugh her th0ugh.
and saturday i w0uld be g0ing t0 mrs pada's h0use.
t0 help her dec0rate her h0use.

kewl!
hah!
things w0uld be keeping me busy f0r the time being.
s0 if i didnt update.
then pard0n me.

weehes.
but then i w0uld update.
insyallah.

till here then.
aint much t0 say th0ugh.
half 0f t0day simply sucks big time.
i was distracted in english less0n.
teacher kept banging the b0ard.
implying 0n me t0 c0ncentrate th0ugh.

but i just cnt.
s0mething's 0n my mind.
and that s0mething is s0mething which.
nehmind.

wnt g0 0n anym0re.
have t0 keep it t0 myself.
lemme suffer it.
w0uldnt be a burden t0 any0ne.
just like what syaff's been saying.

haiy0.
keep it t0 myself.
is the best thing i c0uld d0.

s0 peash 0ut.
i'm 0utta here.

y0u say i t0ok y0u f0r granted.
that's the last thing i w0uld d0.
i'll never understand it.
damn!