achik's gr0wing taller;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
t0day was just a n0rmal day th0ugh.
alm0st all 0f the sexybaliks g0 f0r their gap camps.
left me and atiqah al0ne.
haiy0.

they w0uld be away until t0m0rr0w.
haiy0.mish them cans?
g0sh.

all al0ne at h0me.
parents went 0ut t0 tampiness.
c0uldnt f0ll0w them th0ugh.
have t0 c0mplete ma pr0jects.
g0sh.and nasima still havent send me the d0cument.
damn!
h0w am i g0ing t0 d0 it.
if its n0t received by t0m0rr0w.
i w0uld have t0 d0 a new 0ne.
n0t f0rgetting the scripts.

damn!and m0ndae's the presentati0n.
haiy0y0.
nehmind.
g0ing t0 d0 a new 0ne.

s0 im keeping myself busy.
have t0.
s0 till here then.

achik's busy.
and 0uhya.
kak haslinda!!
weehes.
i'm blushing.bacause y0u saw me having p.e
g0sh!haiy0.
and im already tall.
ahhas.sindir per?
aiy0.
weehes.

nehmind.take care.
peash.
i'm 0utta here.

i'm t0o attached;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
went t0 skewl t0dae.
mish everyb0dy.
wh0 w0uldnt?
its been like alm0st tw0 daes i didnt c0me t0 skewl.

haiy0.
went t0 skewl with stan.
reach there as usual.
was still sick th0ugh.
lucky my temperature was 37.2.

and 0uhya.
ma classmates all asked me where did i g0.
did i l0st my way t0 skewl 0r whatever.
ahhas.
i just smiled th0ugh.

seems like they are c0ncerned.
weehes.
n0 me.n0 j0kes.
thats what they sae.
but n0 y0u.
there wnt be me either.
h0okay?

aiy0.
s0 silly.
pe less0n.
t0ld ya.im g0ing t0 be hyperactive again.
and ya.i am th0ugh.
we played this kinda m0nkey and p0is0n0us ball game.
it was like.
there w0uld be tw0 balls.
0ne the m0nkey w0uld be h0lding.
and the 0ther 0ne the players.
the player must thr0w the ball t0 an0ther player.
and she must thr0w fast.
if n0t the m0nkey w0uld thr0w the ball at her.

and i bec0me the m0nkey f0r sure.
because im the sh0rtest.damn!
haiy0.fine!hmpffh!
then c0incidencely.it was syaqinah's burfdae.
s0 she g0t the ball f0r sure.
and the c0urt was wet.
s0 were the balls.
and i thr0w at her.

phew!!a g0od sh0t.
it g0t hit 0n her face.
ahhas.
and her face was wet.
and there it was.
a g0od and nice 0ne.
achik just bashed the burfdae girl!
ahhas.

then i d0 it t0 alm0st every girl.
ahhas.
nice 0ne.
n0w all 0f them wanted revenge.
and 0ne 0f them did t0 me.
i c0uldnt av0id the hit cause i was h0lding an0ther ball.
was helping mr. said with his balls.
i mean with the balls.
n0t his balls lar.
g0sh.

pe tshirt was wet.
ahhas.
kewl.
aiy0.
english less0n.
was quiet.
was having flu.
didnt c0mmunicate much.
maths less0n.
put ma head d0wn.
rest.
teacher asked why but didnt say anything th0ugh.
after sch0ol.
g0 h0me with stan again.

didnt went f0r h0mec t0day.
was sick,like i sae.
maybe because i played with the water.
haiy0.damn!
slept after taking bath.
it was c0ld.rainning.

and 0uhya.
n0w its mardiana's turn t0 get sick.
ahhas.
she blamed me f0r passing the virus t0 her.
but it was like i didnt see her f0r alm0st tw0 daes.
h0w t0 pass the virus t0 her?
and y0u kn0w what she sae?
thr0ugh the ph0ne.
haiy0.
nice 0ne.

the day when i g0t sick.
she made a night ph0ne call.
9 till 1045.
l0ng th0ugh.
but the l0ngest c0nversati0n i had with her is three h0urs.
s0 it's n0rmal.
ahhas.

nehmind.
mardiana.get well s0on.
and better n0t c0me t0 sch0ol 0n m0ndae if y0ur still sick.
h0okay?

i'm d0ne here.
take care.darl.
peash.

beanie + dummie's 0utta here.

Cahaya menghilang redup
Kamar hati ku bagaikan terkunci
Jernih air dicemari kedukaan
Biar hujan membasahi l
uka Tetapkan pedih
Walau dibalut dengan kata Indah
Namun titis darah merah
takkan Menjadi putih ;

missing in acti0n;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
been missing in acti0n f0r alm0st tw0 days.
didnt went t0 sch0ol f0r tw0 days t0o.
haiy0.

mish ma sexybaliks and als0 classmates.
weehes.
aiy0.

was lying in ma bed m0st 0f the time.
didnt use the c0m.
n0 strength.
and what's m0re.
i cnt taste what i eat.
i cnt smell what i supp0sed sh0uld give 0ut the smell.
haiy0.

went t0 the d0ct0r yesterdae.al0ne
haiy0.
have t0 eat medicines.
didnt tast anythink th0ugh.cause i c0uldnt taste like i just sae.
s0 went t0 sleep at 3pm.
w0ke up at 715.
then eat dinner and medicines again.
was dr0wsy already at 915.
but call mardiana.
talked ab0ut yesterdae.
keep her acc0mpany.

then at 11.hang up the ph0ne.
went t0 sleep.
sleep halfway thr0ugh.
w0ke up at 12.
was sweating.
switch 0n the air-c0n.
went t0 sleep again at 1210.
w0ke up at 1045 t0dae.
msg mardiana.
supp0sed t0 msg her at 9am.
but w0ke up late th0ugh.

haiy0.
and n0w it's rainning.
damn!

think i'm d0ne here.
take care.
peash.
dummie + beanie's 0utta here.

everything i 0wn;

click here.listen.and sing.
http://mhillexii.imeem.com/music/wPz0C5Vs/everything_i_own/


You sheltered me from harm
You kept me warm, you kept me warm
And you gave my life to me
You set me free, you set me free
The finest years I ever knew
Were all the years I had with you


And I would give everything I own
I'd give up my life, my heart, my home
I would give everything I own
Just to have you back again

You taught me how to love
What a time, what a time
You never said too much
But still you showed the way
And I knew from watching you
And nobody else could ever know
The part of me that can't let g0

heyl0s.heyl0s.
lyrics 0f n'sync-everything i 0wn.
n0think much t0 say th0ugh.
kinda busy.
still havent d0ne my music pr0ject.
n0t f0rgetting my tw0 h0mec pr0jects.

and 0uhya.
went h0me with mardiana t0dae.
was kinda awkward.
ferst time g0ing h0me with her th0ugh.
but then i have standley t0 acc0mpany.

he als0 went h0me.
he had t0 g0 f0r tuiti0n.
and rum0urs are spreading fast.
like spitfire th0ugh.
they th0ught i was kinda in a relati0nship with him.
hah!i was kinda sh0cked th0ugh.
cause i didnt kn0w they w0uld think that way.
then i say i was in a relati0nship with him th0ugh.
it was friendship i mean.

hahas.
en0ugh ab0ut that.
t0ok a l0ng time writing this p0st th0ugh.
was busy.
and n0w mardiana's mad at me.
damn!

i dnt kn0w.
it started when...
nehmind.
i msg als0 she never reply.
pandai.
haiy0.

arghh!!
nehmind.
i'm caught up with time.
s0 i g0t t0 g0.
take care.
beanie + dummie's 0utta here.
peash.


p.s:is there s0me0ne y0u kn0w?l0ving them s0 but taking them all f0r granted?
y0u may l0se them 0ne day.s0me0ne takes them away.
and they dnt hear the w0rds y0u long to say.

pressed f0r time;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
t0dae's sunday.
bumming ar0und at h0me as usual.
daddy and mummy didnt w0rk t0dae.

spent time t0gether.
watch televisi0n.
and shared s0me laughs t0gether.
many things we laugh 0ur heads t0gether.

was kinda fun th0ugh.
and n0w i'm sitting here.
editing pics.
w0rried ab0ut und0ne h0mew0rks.
ma presentati0ns.
h0mec and music.
haiy0.

if y0u were t0 kn0w.
i'm really stress up inside here.
waiting f0r the time.
until i breaks d0wn.
it's 0nly a matter 0f time th0ugh.

haiy0.
and 0uhya.
remember i t0ld y0u ab0ut mardiana?
i f0rg0t t0 call her.
and then i msg her she didnt reply.
then i t0ok the initiative t0 call her up.

she did pick up.
and she was angry th0ugh.
g0sh!
she waited f0r my call until 330.
haiy0.

and i did ap0logised th0ugh.
weehes.
haiy0.
and i have t0 call her i think.
nehmind.
haiy0.

still busy.
i'm pressed f0r time.
havent d0ne h0mew0rk.
didnt had a pr0per breakfast,lunch and dinner t0o.
just ate sandwich.

this few daes.
i dnt really eat much.
very lazy t0 chew the f0od.
hahas.
aiy0.
eat als0 very lazy siak.
achik.achik.

nehmind.
till here then.
have t0 c0mplete h0mew0rk.
alth0ugh n0t a skewlw0rk girl.
haiy0.

hyperactive l0ves me yesterdae;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
didnt p0st yesterdae.
t0o tired.
was hyperactive yesterdae.
hah!

yesterdae had p.e.
and it was fun th0ugh.
ahhas.ferst time me taking part in p.e
played handball.

didnt sc0red.
luck wasnt 0n my side yesterdae.
it was a miss everytime i wanna sh0ot.
damn!

then after p.e.
helped teacher with the balls.
i mean put the balls at the pe st0rer00m.
hah!
then wait f0r standley.
and went f0r recess.
and 0uhya.
ferst time i wave t0 wahtee.
it was unexpected actually.
they called my name.
and i c0uldnt see clearly.
s0 i just waved.
ahhas.

then went 0ver t0 the r0und table.
meet the sexybaliks.
they were suprised actually.
cause they haf never seen me perspiring s0 much.
haiy0.cause everytime i w0uld c0me up with an excuse t0 n0t g0 p.e
and i didnt yesterdae.
alth0ugh standley asked n0t t0 g0.

haiy0.
then went h0me with standley.
but then had t0 g0 skewl again.
had h0mec.
we c0oked chicken rendang.
but then i g0t a lil' 0nly.
s0 i gave it t0 kak haslinda.

stayback with her.
she haf t0 wait f0r her friend.
what's the name?
erm...
hafizah.
yay.i alm0st f0rget.
ahhas.

stayback with her.
then saw syafiqah and amani.
amani pass the xb0x game she b0rr0wed.
then kak haslinda went h0me.
i stay with syaf and amani f0r awhile.
we had funs.
talked ab0ut the darlie advetisement.
ahhas.
g0sh!
i nearly laughed my heads 0ff.
weehes.

then went h0me at ar0und five.
was s0 tired.
didnt eat.
went h0me used the c0mputer f0r awhile.
then mummy went h0me.
watch t.v

and at ar0und 745.
went t0 lala~ land.
was t0o tired.
w0ke up at 834.
eat mee h0ngk0ng.
was t0o lazy t0 eat actually.
but was f0rced by sister.
damn!

eat 0nly f0ur serving 0f it.
then went t0 sleep back.
pr0mised t0 call mardiana at ar0und 11.
but i w0ke up at 2.

th0ught she sh0uld be asleep by then.
s0 didnt call.
wake up at 10.
late.
and msg her.
but she didnt reply.
haiy0.
dnt tell me she's still mad at me?
haiy0.

i dnt kn0w lar.
haiy0.
haiy0.
haiy0.

think i'm d0ne here already.
take care.
i'm 0utta here.
beanie + dummie's 0utta here.
peace.

that's h0w i like it behbey;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
t0day's a fun day.
went t0 clementi stadium with stanley.
supp0sedly reach there at 7.
have t0 help mrs pada.

but then the cabby all full.
m0stly hired.0r m.i.a(missing in acti0n)
haiy0.
then after a few minutes.
a cab came.
thank g0d.
but we were already late when we reach there.
it was 734.i think.

haiy0.then luckilly was just in time t0 sing the nati0nal athem.
hah!
then went t0 0ur respective h0uses.

such a sunny day.
can g0 sun-tanning already siak.
i'm a lil-dark n0w.
haiy0.

was fun all al0ng.
hang ar0und with giant ash0k and cutey diah.
shared s0me laughs t0gether.

and i bring the digi cam f0r n0thing.
hah!
didnt t0ok pictures.
alm0st f0rg0t.t0o busy d0ing n0thing,i guess.
hah!

ermm.then walk t0 the clementi inter with the sexybaliks.
syaq,stan and mardiana and her friend.
didnt f0ll0w them t0 atiqah's h0use.
pr0mised t0 went h0me with mardiana.

s0 we parted ways at the pathway t0 clementi inter.
t0ok 99 h0me.
a d0uble-deck bus.
but i sit at the l0wer deck.
cnt sit with the 0ther kambengs.
cause mardiana hate sacastic remarks.
s0 i sit bel0w.

but she ask t0 sit with her.
but i didnt want t0.
s0 i just d0 my 0wn things bel0w.
haiy0.

s0 alighted with mardiana.
use traffic light t0 cr0ss.
we are 0bedient.
hah!

yay rite.
it was an insult actually.
h0okay.whatever.achik.
cut the crap.

and then chatted al0ng the way.
shared s0me laughs again.
and then we parted ways at the r0ad.
i g0 t0 my left.
t0 the left t0 the left.
and she g0 t0 her right.
t0 the right t0 the right.

haiy0.i'm lame.
i kn0w.
whatever.
then went h0me.
g0t a call fr0m mardiana.
gave her s0mething.
and then went h0me.

had my lunch.and breakfast.
but didnt finish it th0ugh.
after lunch.g0t a call fr0m muben.
ask me t0 g0 0nline cause he's b0red.

i sae insyallah.
cause was busy again.d0ing n0thing.
hah!
after awhile.
went 0nline.

talk with muben.
had a fite with him.
0ver s0mething.
haiy0.

n0w i'm frustrated.
haiya!
didnt have much t0 talk.
s0 i think i better end it here.

s0 i'm 0utta here.darl.
take care.peash.


believe me when i say;

what if i had a thing 0n the side;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
it's been a great day t0day th0ugh.
and 0uhya.
i'm drifting away fr0m the sexybaliks already.

what i predicted finally c0me true th0ugh.
but whatever it is.
like s0me0ne says.
pe0ple change.but whatever it is.
just m0ve 0n with y0ur life.

it's kinda true.
cause time cnt wait f0r y0u.
it wnt have t0 st0p.
and life have t0 g0 0n s0meh0w.

i cnt d0 anything n0w.
i just have t0 sit there and act as if n0thing happened th0ugh.
i'll find my 0wn way s0meh0w.
i'm just as str0ng as a superman.n0t cicakman.
weehes.

haiy0.t0m0rr0w's sp0rts dae.
l0oking f0rward t0 it.
had t0 g0 early.
helping t0 distribute f0ods t0 teachers.
mrs pada instructed t0.

taking 334 t0 jur0ng east interchange.
then meet up with stanley.
flag a cab.and reach t0 clementi stadium.
h0pefully reach bef0re 7 0r al least 7.

then d0 usual things.
haiy0.i'm n0t myself lately again.
this time i dnt kn0w why.
i just cnt find the 0ld me th0ugh.
it's all a big fake smiles all the way.
if 0nly y0u knew;

but i w0uld keep g0ing t0 find my 0ld me.
and then i w0uld be alright.
haiya.
i just dnt understand things.
it's all g0ing apart.

haiya.haiya.haiya.
haiy0.haiy0.haiy0.

whatever lar!!!damn!!!!
i hate it.
but i had a great time with siti-kus and kak haslinda th0ugh.
we went t0 the library.
0uhya.
we are immatured.hah!
and a new w0rd we learn:bulu.

hah!funfunfun.
but i cnt hide the pain inside th0ugh.
it was fake smiles all al0ng.
nehmind.
dnt wanna talk ab0ut it anym0re.

i better get g0ing th0ugh.
cnt g0 0n.
s0 take care pe0ple.
i'm 0utta here.darl.

beanie + dummie's 0utta here.

what if i had a thing 0n the side make y0u cry?
w0uld the rules change up 0r w0uld they still apply?
if i played y0u like a t0y;

i'm disap0inted in y0u th0ugh;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
didnt went t0 skewl t0dae.
had a slight fever.
and n0w i had the runs.

must have eaten s0mething.
and had t0 g0 t0 the t0ilet thrice.
maybe later g0ing again.
ahhas.

aiy0.
t0dae meet up kak haslinda.
and i saw her cry.
yeah.it was a suprise.
haiy0.ferst time seeing her cry.
and 0uhya.
i'm bad at c0mf0rting pe0ple when they cry.
s0 when pe0ple cry.
it's either i walked away 0r just shut the fuck up.
hah!!
seri0usly.i dnt kn0w h0w t0 c0mf0rt pe0ple.
i w0uld 0nly make them cry m0re 0r laugh.
haiy0.

i asked her why she cry all that stuff.
and she said she had an argument with **.
i g0t n0 c0mments t0 say.
i'm t0tally disapp0inted with **.
i tried t0 help y0u see things.
but y0u just wnt see it.
i'm t0tally mad at y0u!!

y0ur n0t the same as last time th0ugh.
and i cnt d0 anything.
it's y0ur life.
all i can d0 is sh0w y0u the right path th0ugh.
but y0u just dnt understand.
it's n0t that i dnt trust y0u.
it's just that y0u make me d0 what i hate.

maybe we sh0uld g0 0ur separate ways th0ugh.
if it g0es 0n like this.we are hurting each 0ther.
i dnt n0e.
i'm c0nfused right n0w.
i cnt think straight.

s0 i think i have sae what i want t0.
and i h0pe y0u understand what i'm tryna sae.
it's f0r y0ur 0wn g0od.
and what y0ur g0nna d0 is up t0 y0u t0o.
i cnt d0 anything.
all i can d0 n0w is extend my hand.
if y0u need it.h0ld 0nt0 it.

s0 i think i better end it here.
if n0t i'm g0nna breakd0wn.
i wnt shed tears n0w.
i'm g0nna be str0ng and s0 will y0u.
yeah?

take care.
i'm 0utta here.darl.
peash.
dummie + beanie's 0ut.

h0w t0 be fine when i'm n0t;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
kinda sick t0dae.
the pain acts up again cause i didnt eat f0r my breakfast and alm0st lunch.
i think.
and i'm having a spliting headache!!
damn!!

maybe i'm c0nfused ab0ut things all ar0und me.
upc0ming tests.friendships.and als0 s0me 0ther things.
haiy0!!
can die lar.
g0sh.

haiy0.
n0t in the m0od again.
cause 0f this headache.
haiy0.
be aware.
i can expl0de anything.
weehes.
yay rite.
g0sh.
i'm being sacastic here.
hah!

fine.i cnt think sraight th0ugh.
g0sh!
haiy0.
think i'm d0ne here.
take care.
peace.

dummie + beanie's 0utta here.
weehes.

chris daughtry-over you

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.'

Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

i'm already 0ver y0u;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
just came h0me fr0m the library.
with muben and kak haslinda.

it was fun th0ugh even if s0methink irks me halfway.
dnt wanna talk ab0ut it.
just that i detest liars.
wth!!

if you can't hold yourself together
why should I hold you now?
yeah.
i hate liars.

nehmind.
dnt wanna talk ab0ut ths fucking shit.
it's just wanna make me fucking hate y0u m0re.
arghh!!!
wth!!!

nehmind.
i g0t t0 g0 already.
new s0ng.
chris daughtry-over you.
nice 0ne.
beanie + dummie 0utta here.
dnt mind dummie.
bad bad dummie is in a bad bad m0od.
damn!

i'm n0t a sh0ulder t0 cry 0n;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
t0dae.
i'm d0wn with a fever.
aiy0.

maybe g0t it when i went 0ut t0 see mardiana yesterdae.
cause yesterdae it was raining.
and i didn't bring any umbrella al0ng.

t0dae.
n0think much t0 talk ab0ut.
but i c0me t0 a c0nclusi0n th0ugh.

atiqah and i aint cl0se anym0re th0ugh.
can see.
it's hard th0ugh f0r me.

when i had a misunderstanding with s0me0ne.
when everything's alright,it's n0t t0 me.
i w0uld began t0 n0t trust that pers0n n0r get cl0se.
haiy0.
i dnt want it t0 happen this way th0ugh.
g0sh!!
s0 i'm steepping up my game.
i'm g0ing t0 d0 whatever i can t0 be like last time.
s0 supp0rt me.weehes.

s0 g0t t0 g0.
0uhya.dnt f0rget t0 listen t0
fall0ut b0y's it aint a scene,it's a g0ddamned arms race.
nice 0ne.
i like this s0ng th0ugh.
the vide0clip was kinda kewl,i must say.
and ya.
any0ne have the album?infinity 0n high i think?
can y0u be kind en0ugh t0 lend it t0 me?
pleash?

and bef0re i f0rget.
the band?remember?
kinda been f0rmed.
skewlb0ys fr0m c.c.k and als0 deeyan.
y0u kn0w rite?
and maybe just maybe.
i'm a step f0rward t0 achieving my dream.
t0 be a pr0fessi0nal drummer.
h0pe it wnt came crashing d0wn.
yeah?
maybe if everything's alright and find the bassist and all.
we'll be starting t0 g0 f0r practices.
c0mp0se s0ngs and als0 have 0ur 0wn jams.
just like juni0r jams!!!
isn't it kewl?

weehes.and if it's p0ssible.
have 0ur very first 0wn GIG!!!
w0w!!!
ahhas.
and 0uhya.dnt f0rget t0 supp0rt me again.
ahhas.
g0sh!!
i'm s0 happy th0ugh.

and t0m0rr0w g0ing 0ut.
with kak haslinda.
n0t f0rgetting khairul and atiqah(n.a)
weehes.
the digicam's tagging al0ng.
s0 kp0.
ahhas.

s0 till here then.
wanna watch tbee.
pris0n break seas0n tw0 sh0wing at 1030 s0on.
s0 peash 0ut pe0ple.
take care.
i'm 0utta here.
dummie's + beanie.

dummie's new life

th0ughts 0f the day:love is painful that is true.

not to love is painful too; but there is a greater pain:

to love and not be loved again

heyl0s.heyl0s.

kinda delete all the 0ther entries.

all 0f 27 p0sts.

i'm starting anew.

yeah.behbey.

i dnt want t0 g0 br0oding 0ver my past anym0re.

the past is hist0ry.

what's imp0rtant n0w.

is my future.

rite?

0uhya.talking ab0ut that.

dnt remind 0f death again.

i dnt wanna think 0f it anym0re.

even if i kn0w i'm dying,

i wnt let it bring me d0wn.

i'm g0nna be str0ng.

and i dnt wanna burden pe0ple.

especially pe0ple wh0 i care f0r.and always will.

haish.

i dnt want y0u t0 tell me that i'm dying.

h0okay?

just tell me that i'm fine.

and i'll be alright.

if y0u keep telling me t0 take care 0f myself.

then y0u kn0w.

i w0uld be feeling w0rse inside.

g0sh!!

did y0u really kn0w that?

haiy0.

s0 remember.

dnt care ab0ut me t0o much.

i dnt need that.

i just want y0u t0 respect me.

as in just g0 0n with y0ur life.

and let me die in a silent 0ne.

h0okay?

remember friend.

whatever happens.

it happens f0r a reas0n.

and always n0ted that.

and i'm g0nna assured y0u that.

whatever happens.

i'm g0ing t0 make it and life g0es 0n.

h0okay.

it's 311am n0w.

i cnt get t0 sleep that's why.

s0 think i haf t0 turn in n0w.

take care.

remember.

i'm g0nna be alright.

it's just a matter 0f time.

and 0uhya.

i mish my besties.darls and als0 my **.

weehes.

h0w many daes m0re t0 sch0ol starts again.

can't wait.

s0 take care.

dnt f0rget t0 d0 y0ur h0lidae h0mew0rk.

study hard but play hard t0o.

play hard d0esn't mean play** hard.

i kn0w what y0ur thinking.

remember.

i maybe thirteen but i'm already MATURED.

ahhhas.

s0 peash 0ut.

dummie and beanie 's 0utta here.

take care.