and there's one thing i kn0w;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
yesterday was fun th0ugh.
we had a family functi0n at d0wnt0wn chalet.
i think.

i didnt swim th0ugh.
but we did had fun.
truckl0ads 0f them i guess.

and bef0re i f0rgets.
lab0ur day is n0t this c0ming tuesday.
it falls 0n 1st may.s0 next week.

we reached d0wnt0wn at ar0und 430pm.
went t0 the chalet and stuff.
i wasnt really in a happy m0od.
my mind was 0n sexybaliks th0ugh.

yayayaya.
maybe syaff was angry.
but seri0usly lar.
y0u cnt blame syaq.
she was als0 feeling left 0ut,i guess.
and what's m0re.
she was angry with the negr0 thingy.

i admit i was cl0se t0 her this past week.
but i d0 it because every0ne wasnt 0n talking terms with her th0ugh.
it's like every0ne was busy with their 0wn lives 0r wnt talk t0 her.

y0u can say i sympathise her.
ya.i d0.
but remember.
she's my friend.y0u cnt criticise her.

s0 st0p that negr0 thingy.
and whatever happens.
y0u sh0uld kn0w.
i'm always there.

and whatever happens.it happens f0r a reas0n.
and if we weren't destined t0 be friends f0rever.
i w0uld kn0w.
cause i dnt believe in trying.
cause what's the use in trying if we aint destined to be b.f.f.
i only believe in fate.

just like the saying.
l0ve wnt g0 anywhere if y0ur destined t0 last.
s0 if we are destined t0 be b.f.f.
then we are destined.
n0 use trying.

h0pe we w0uld end these c0ld wars between us.
and again.
we w0uld be able t0 sit at the r0und table.
having little time but s0 much things t0 talk ab0ut.
and 0nce again.
we c0uld sing the sexybaliks theme s0ng.

h0w i h0pe things w0uld be 0kay.
i sighed.but it wnt change the situati0n.
i try everything i c0uld.
and yet again.
it still didnt change the situati0n.

en0ugh ab0ut this th0ugh.
let's c0ntinue fr0m where we st0p ab0ut yesterdae.

all my family members were there.
c0usins.nephews.nieces.
uncles and aunts.

and i didnt kn0w i have s0 much nephews and nieces.
hah!and what's m0re.
i c0uldnt even remember their names.
but nehmind.
time will help me.
and pictures w0uld be upl0aded.
have fun l0oking at them.

but all the fun ended.
because 0f me.
n0t as in i did s0mething wr0ng th0ugh.
but i guess due t0 the fall i had.
my back c0uldnt m0ve.

i was carrying things t0 barbeque.
and suddenly i c0uldnt m0ve.
and my uncles was w0rrying.
g0sh!

and they asked me t0 g0 d0ct0r.
but i didnt want t0.
and s0 they bring me h0me t0 my 5th uncle's h0use.
cause my aunt was a physcian.

she massaged my back.
and she t0ld me that my veins was tied t0gether.
that's the reas0n why i c0uldnt m0ve.
and what's m0re.
my back was bruised.
if y0u c0uld see.
it's n0t straight d0wn t0 the b0tt0m.
it g0t a hump.

haiy0.
and i c0uldnt bend.
and my right hand hurts.
haiy0.
0ne pr0blem after an0ther.

thank g0d it wasnt 0n the left.
if n0t.i c0uldnt have write.
hah!

s0 i think i'm d0ne here.
pictures bel0w.
and i dnt wanna think much ab0ut anything.

Can you leave me here alone now
I don’t wanna hear you say
That you know me
That I should be
Always doing what you say

‘Cause I’m trying get through today
And there’s one thing I know
I don’t wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don’t wanna figure this out

I don’t wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don’t wanna talk this one out
I won’t let you bring me down

When I wake up here tomorrow
Things will never be the same
'Cause I won't wait
'Cause you won't change
And you'll always be this way
Now I'm gonna get through today
And there's one thing I know

have a little patience;

I was blown away
What could I say
It all seemed to make sense
You've taken away everything
And I can't deal with that.

Cause I need time
My heart is numb has no feeling
So while I’m still healing
just try and have a little patience

I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
the one that I can always depend
I’ll try to be strong believe me
I’m trying to move on
it’s complicated but understand me.

heyl0s.heyl0s.
l0ng time since i've update.
been busy.like i t0ld ya.
and what's m0re many things been happening.

i dnt kn0w whether i sh0uld say this.
cause what im g0ing t0 say w0uld maybe hurt 0thers.
but i have t0 be straightf0rward th0ugh.

maybe ref0rming back sexybaliks was a mistake.
i dnt kn0w.
but s0meh0w.
the m0re we try t0 get cl0ser.
the m0re we are drifting apart.

they say im n0t being myself lately.
i s0meh0w agree th0ugh.
but it's n0t 0nly me.
if 0nly y0u knew.

i have tried my best t0 spend time with y0u.
but t0 n0 avail.
it's like.
we are t0gether.
but it's 0nly 0n the 0utside.but what ab0ut in the inside?

i cnt g0 0n anym0re.
i just want t0 make y0u guys realise.
i just cnt be the 0ne wh0 sh0uld make it right s0metimes.
we d0 0ur part.and make a difference.
and everything w0uld be alright.

trust me.
y0u can step up y0ur game and save this friendship.
0r even just let it fade away.
and make me regret my decisi0n t0 ref0rm.

the decisi0n's in y0ur hand.
whether t0 save it 0r n0t.
and i w0uld kn0w the answer
with the way y0u act.

en0ugh ab0ut this.
i'm n0t in sch0ol 0n m0nday.
g0ing f0r harm0nica syf.
w0uld 0nly be g0ing f0r last less0n that is maths.

then tuesday w0uld not be g0ing t0 sch0ol.
it's lab0ur day.

and t0day.
w0nt be at h0me.
w0uld be at d0wnt0wn.
a familly functi0n g0ing 0n.
i w0uld 0nly update 0n m0nday.
if can.t0m0rr0w.

and yesterday.was pretty weird.
it was a stupid j0ke.
but i t0ok it seri0usly until i had a dream ab0ut it th0ugh.
but i dnt kn0w.
everywhere i g0.i w0uld see y0u.
haiy0.

but i t0ld ya.
i've l0ng given up 0n l0ve.
s0 dnt waste y0ur time.
it's 0f n0 use.

i'm d0ne here.i guess.
i'm busy this week.
and i'm t0o tired.

s0 take care.
anything just msg me 0r give me a call.
s0 i'm 0utta here.
take care.

and it was unexpected;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
yesterday sucks.
but t0day.
dnt really sucks.

0nly pe0ple d0 sucks.
and i hate it.

t0day standley came sch0ol.
at last.
i dnt mish him frankly.
cause i dnt miss pe0ple.

i dnt really mish pe0ple.
i dnt really kn0w h0w t0 miss them.
seri0us.during sch0ol h0lidays.
i dnt say i miss pe0ple.
maybe i dnt have a heart.

whatever.
i'm n0t really in a g0od m0od th0ugh.
i d0 smile.but it's fake i guess.
cause i'm n0t myself.

t0day.i dnt really mix with pe0ple.
the 0nly pe0ple is.
standley,syaqinah,nissa,amani and atiqah.
i dnt mix with s0me 0f the slumbers and sexybaliks.

i'm having mixed feelings in my heart here.
i cnt think straight.
and i dnt kn0w why.
a day w0uld c0me and maybe i w0uld breakd0wn.

burst 0ut all the things inside here.
damn it!
wat the hell!!!!

g0sh.s0rry.
i t0ld y0u i'm n0t in a very g0od m0od t0day.
s0 dnt mind me.

"sometimes the best and the most
beautiful things in the world cannot be seen,
cannot be touched, but can be felt in the heart"

and that is l0ve.
l0ve dnt need reas0ns.
its something
you can feel burning inside your heart
and waiting to be explode of love

and whatever happens.
it happens f0r a reas0n.
and y0u dnt questi0n why s0meb0dy l0ves y0u.
cause l0ve is nature.
it happens unexpectedly.
just like h0w it happen t0 me.

think i'm d0ne here.
tags:i wnt reply t0 them th0ugh.
i'm in n0 m0od t0 either.
s0 s0rry.
help me get back my m0od then we can talk.
alrite?

take care.
i'm 0utta here.darl.

where's achik?

heyl0s.heyl0s.
didnt p0st f0r a few days.
was kinda busy with stuff and life.

and damn it.
i cnt c0ncentrate this past few days.
haiy0.
i need a slap.i need a nugde.

haiy0.
and maybe s0me0ne's mad at me.
and i dnt kn0w why.
haiy0.

what did i d0 sey.
haiy0.
nehmind.

and 0uhya.
standley's c0ming t0m0rr0w.
weehes.i dnt mish him actually.
hah.

s0 take care.
a sh0rt p0st t0day.
n0t in the m0od.
and im n0t myself.

s0 achik's twin here.
and achik's l0st.
where's achik.
i dnt kn0w.

when we laugh 0r we cry;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
i'm happy t0dae.
weehes.
the reas0n is as simple.

the sexybaliks is back.
weehes.
frankly.
i can try t0 pretend.but i cant f0rget the mem0ries th0ugh.
it feels as th0ugh i have l0st a part 0f me when we all had a fight.
it was as th0ugh we were all strangers.

n0w i finally g0t what it means true friends.
weehes!!!
s0rry guys f0r the mistakes i have made.
let's all start a new life.

h0okay?
and n0w.
it's all ab0ut us.
all ab0ut us.
it's all ab0ut us.
all ab0ut us.

s0 if they hurt y0u.
they hurt all the sexybaliks.
s0 we'll rise up.
wnt st0p and it's all ab0ut us.

when we cry 0r we laugh.
it's t0gether.
thr0ugh the rain and the st0rmiest weather.
we g0nna still be as 0ne.it's f0rever.
it's f0rever.

h0okay?
we sh0uld c0mpr0mised.
and v0w t0 never fight again.
can we?

i aint dealt with it all;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
im back fr0m m.i.a.
and many things happened.
im l0sing all my smiles.

didnt went t0 sch0ol f0r tw0 days.
was having high fever.
dnt talk ab0ut it anym0re.

n0w.
the sexybaliks is n0t anym0re the sexybaliks.
damn!

every0ne's changing.
and i dnt kn0w why.
maybe what my sis said was sp0t-0n th0ugh.
alth0ugh i didnt believe it at first.

friends c0me and g0.
its just part and parcel 0f life.
and y0u sh0uld just m0ve 0n with life th0ugh.

that's what y0u call mem0ries.
it sh0uld be treasured.
yeah.
and n0w it's the slumbers

s0 im m0ving 0n.
it's a matter 0f time behbey.
i miss the smiling faces on my sidekicks.

s0.
i'm w0rking at it.
and 0uhya.
i changed my number already.
96347540*

s0 till here then.
take care.
peash.

i'm waiting;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
didnt p0st f0r yesterdae.
f0r i was tired.
went 0ut t0 mrs pada's.

helped 0ut f0r the c0ming students.
fr0m fatimah c0llege.
it was fun th0ugh.
just that the heavy d0wnp0ur breaks my c0nfidence a lil'.

i hate thunders.
and i think g0d kn0ws i w0uld be g0ing 0ut 0n that day.
and s0 the thunders were s0 l0ud.
g0sh!

i blasted the mp3 t0 full v0lume s0 that i wnt hear the thunders.
hah!
it was funny th0ugh.
but im scared.

weehes.
and s0 reached ch0a chu kang.
th0ught it was sunny there.
but turned 0ut it was even heavy d0wnp0ur.
damn!
i have t0 run cause there was n0 br0lly.
and was drenched in the rain.

i saw it c0ming already.
achik's g0ing t0 get sick.
caught the c0ld already.
weehes.

haiy0.
reached there.
we eat ch0c0late cake and have peach tea at mrs pada's.
bef0re m0ving 0n with the stuffs t0 the b0oked l0ngue.
at the l0ngue,we dec0rate the walls.
arrange tables and chairs.

but m0st 0f the time.
i have t0 g0 0utside.
cause it was c0ld in the l0ngue.
and i c0uldnt breathe pr0perly.
cause 0f the bl0cked n0se.

haiy0.
s0 we waited f0r the caterers t0 set up the f0ods.
and waited f0r the indians t0 c0me.
we waited.
mdm anita,mrs chua,mrs bay and n0t f0rgetting mrs pada was there.
we had s0 much fun.
we talked ab0ut many things.

and mrs bay hug me.
cause i was c0ld.
and she asked me t0 have a change 0f cl0thes.
cause my cl0thes was wet.
but i didnt want t0.

weehes.
after a while.
the indians arrived during dinner.
at ar0und 7.
with teachers.
mrs quek(i mish her).
mdm vasanthi.

mrs bay t0uched 0n h0w h0ng kah students d0.
her slides presentati0n.
after that.
the dinner starts.

we ate.
many eat a sec0nd serving.
but n0t me.
hah!i was full even after eating tw0 serves 0f f0od.
i wasnt that hungry either.

after that we played games.
thanks nasima.
she was the master 0f cerem0ny.
and she did a great j0b.
my salute t0 her.

after the games.
at ar0und 930.
we packed.
clean the l0ngue.
and packed f0ods.

i didnt b0ther t0 take any h0me.
but they f0rced me.
they sae they have taken t0o many f0ods.
and asked me t0 take h0me.
haiy0!what a hassle.
but then i t0ok h0me.

reached h0me at ar0und 1030.
t0o tired.
went straight t0 bed.
at ar0und 1230.

anyway.
i had a tiff with this pers0n.
i dnt n0e what's the pr0blem.
i was busy.
s0 i didnt kn0w she called.
and i didnt kn0w she w0uld msg.
haiy0.

and when i asked her why she was in a bad m0od.
she say she wasnt in a bad m0od.
but i knew she was.fr0m the way she speaks.
haiy0.

i called her.
she rejected.
s0 i t0ld her.
i w0uldnt care less ab0ut her anym0re.
and i d0 what i sae.

dnt say i sh0uldnt.
nehmind.
im t0o angry t0 write anym0re.
and dnt asked me wh0.
its n0t any 0f the sexybaliks.
its 0ne 0f ~ ~.

take care.
pictures bel0w.









when you walk don't leave a note
just put your hands on the back door
when you talk it's just a joke
just no, I can't take it anymoredown there,
you go always
see if I care fadeddown,
don't you know where
I'll becuz I'm here, on my own

and I'll say

I missed itI missed it

and you'll call then I'll stay

im matured.im matured.

heyl0s.heyl0s.
weehes.
just came back fr0m imm.
weehes.

it was fun.
alth0ugh i was the 0nly girl lar.
tw0 b0ys plus me.

ahhas.
muben and nasri.
but 0verall.
its r0cks my s0cks.

hah!
i b0ught 2 t0ps at $22.
w0uld sh0w y0u.
its kewl th0ugh.
a green and purple t0ps.
weehes.

b0ught at I.P-Z0NE.
it was having a clearence sale.
and c0incidently i was sh0pping f0r t0ps
f0r t0m0rr0w.

have t0 dress up.
weehes.
and 0uhya.
y0u kn0w a secret?
i have cut my hair at last.

ahhas.
and 0uhya.
i saw julaiha while g0ing h0me.
hah.
pretending we're strangers.
weehes.

but i'm n0t s0mb0ng.
kans?
and diahh.
im matured.
i repeat in case y0u didnt understand.
t0 all.
im matured.im matured.
im matured.im matured.
im matured.im matured.
bluek!

d0ne here.
take care.
peash 0ut.
weehes.
i'm 0utta here.

beanie + dummie's 0utta here.

i th0ught y0u knew;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
it was fun th0ugh just then.
alth0ugh there's s0me m0ments when i was in trance.
haiy0.

we had h0mec less0n t0dae.
c0ok ayam masak merah and 0ndeh2.
hah!
kewl.

s0metimes i just dnt understand myself.
haish.
i make pe0ple happy.
even th0ugh i kn0w myself.
i wasnt that happy.

maybe i didnt want pe0ple t0 w0rry ab0ut me.
0r maybe just maybe.
i didnt want them t0 kn0w ab0ut it als0.

damn!
i hate myself s0metimes.
im happy 0utside.
but what ab0ut my inside?

maybe it was full with unhappiness s0metime.
haiy0.
a heart full of w0rds left unsp0ken.

and i g0t t0 kn0w.
i w0uld be participating in the speech day.
w0uld be 0n duty 0n saturdae.
serving the indian students fr0m india.

its fun 0verall.
but what i hate m0st is.
wear a tie.haiy0.

i hate wearing a tie.
its n0t kewl t0 me.
haiy0.
nehmind.

and t0m0rr0w w0uld be g0ing t0 give diahh a treat.
but i cnt get thr0ugh her th0ugh.
and saturday i w0uld be g0ing t0 mrs pada's h0use.
t0 help her dec0rate her h0use.

kewl!
hah!
things w0uld be keeping me busy f0r the time being.
s0 if i didnt update.
then pard0n me.

weehes.
but then i w0uld update.
insyallah.

till here then.
aint much t0 say th0ugh.
half 0f t0day simply sucks big time.
i was distracted in english less0n.
teacher kept banging the b0ard.
implying 0n me t0 c0ncentrate th0ugh.

but i just cnt.
s0mething's 0n my mind.
and that s0mething is s0mething which.
nehmind.

wnt g0 0n anym0re.
have t0 keep it t0 myself.
lemme suffer it.
w0uldnt be a burden t0 any0ne.
just like what syaff's been saying.

haiy0.
keep it t0 myself.
is the best thing i c0uld d0.

s0 peash 0ut.
i'm 0utta here.

y0u say i t0ok y0u f0r granted.
that's the last thing i w0uld d0.
i'll never understand it.
damn!

camwh0ring;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
weehes.
t0day was just a n0rmal day.
but fun th0ugh.

we did 0ur fav0urite things t0gether.
0ne 0f them is.
camwh0ring!!!

s0 pictures bel0w.
weehes.
c0mments are welc0me.
s0 here it g0es.













weehes.nice kan?
teng0k arh saper edit?
weehes.g0sh.

haish.s0 tired this week dey.
g0 skewl early.g0 h0me late.
then have t0 d0 h0mew0rks.
which i 0bvi0usly hate.

and n0t much time t0 sleep.
haiy0.
and i think im having appendics again.
just then my left side hurts badly.

and im having a c0ld.
haiy0.
s0 weak.
lack 0f vitamins i think.
maybe because i dnt eat vegetables.
hah!

yay.
and y0u kn0w s0methink.
in my class.
i have the smallest hand seyy.
haiy0.
all hands are s0 big and giantic.
tak nak kalah seyy.
damn!

s0oner 0r later
i w0uld be kn0w as.
the smallest and sh0rtest kind with the smallest hand.
damn!
haiy0.

nehmind.
maybe im g0ing t0 have a surgery.
t0 extend my 0wn hand.my leg and my size.
hah!
si0w.

weehes.
nehmind.
and 0uhya.
bef0re i f0rgets.
i have rec0nciled with my primaryskewl mates already.
0n the talking terms already dey.
weehes.
kewl.

s0 take care.
i'm 0utta here.
beanie + dummie's 0utta here.
peash.

dnt get me started;

heyl0s.heyl0s.
i just l0ve t0day dey.
020407.a g0od 0ne.



we planned t0 g0 t0 imm after skewl.
hang ar0und.
at first.i didnt want t0 g0 th0ugh.
but at last.after much persuasi0n.
i did.and it's w0rth it actually.

went h0me t0 take ma ez-link.
waited f0r khairul.
and then 0ff we went t0 the bust0p.
reach then at ar0und 230.

we ate at bagus.
delici0us f0ods.
w000h00oo.

i shared fish and chip with syaff and khairul.
after that we went wind0w-sh0pping.
went t0 best denki.
played psp and xb0x.

w0oh0oo.
it was fun th0ugh.
shared s0me laughters t0gether.
syaff.atiqah.muben.khairul and syaqinah.
n0t f0rgetting me.

ph0t0s up s0on.
busy.
have t0 edit.
upl0ad.
take time.

s0 maybe i upl0ad s0me.
the rest t0m0rr0w.
kays?

take care.peash.
i'm 0utta here.
beanie + dummie's 0utta here.


















and maybe what y0u say sh0uld be left unsaid.
cause y0u dnt really kn0w whats been happening.
if y0u dnt,y0u sh0uld just shut the fuck up.
geddit?
dnt get me started.